haha, i have been blogging quite often these days, maybe cuz i m more free bah, with no more soccer and stuff. last nite as i went to bed and couldn't fall asleep, i started thinking. first, i was rather happy with myself that i manage to psycho myself to focus on doing work for the night, by completing analogue and random variables within a few hrs. so i thot i will be able to fall asleep quite soon considering that its quite late already and i m feeling quite tired. but i guess i was wrong. i lay on bed, and started reflecting about things that took place quite recently. i guess conversations with people make me see the light, or maybe that's the way my god wanted to send the message across to me. and the msg is : don't expect too much. because the higher your expectations are, the harder you fall when they are not met. yet when you don't expect anything at all and things do happen, you will be delighted and in for a surprise. though i have come to realise this piece of knowledge very long ago, but for whatsoever reason, it was being reiterated to me again and it just left a very deep impression in me. i m thankful for what my god has done :D because it makes me have a greater and deeper understanding of myself. yet it didn't just end like that, i still couldn't go to sleep after that. also dunnoe why, many thoughts and emotions just came flooding back, and sometimes u just get so frustrated from thinking so much. life can be a lot happier if we just don't think so much right? RIGHT! :)



but guess what, i think i m running away, running away.
have a sudden urge,
to keep running and running and avoiding.
because i don't think u will be running after me too.
and i don't think u can catch up with me.
how long can i hold on?
i never know.
because have i truly owned it in the first place?
confrontation with your feelings hurts.
night is lonesome.



on a more light-hearted note, i m veh happy today after school. as i was walking to the bus stop from sch today,i saw an old lady climbing up the stairs with a heavy trolley in tow. God told me to help, and the next moment i knew, i was walking back to her and offered to carry it up the stairs and across the bridge to the other end. she thanked me, and i dont know why, but it just made my day totally. i was so happy throughout the entire journey that i just can't stop smiling to myself. i guess this is god's way of brightening up my day and i m thankful for that.


heys wanxin! dont be depressed!! hahhaas. cheer up k! we can always talk, because i don't seem to know wat's bothering you, but just know that u r feeling quite down. so smile :) :)


with a warrior's spirit,
hang on and fight on.